Originally posted: October 17, 2013
When I was younger, we would often visit my aunt near Fort Worth, TX during the summers. Without fail, my mom and aunt would frequent antique shops collecting various treasures. As a kid it was fascinating for a while, but after all day ventures of going from shop to shop it would become down right dreadful.
I recall one summer at my aunt’s home… I’ll never forget discovering her typewriter (what now seems like an antique). As I sat down and placed my fingers on the keys something stirred inside of me. Something that I didn’t know existed… I had the desire to write a book. And as a young girl, with that child-like confidence, I began striking the keys one by one… determined to write a book… at that very moment. As I pressed down on each key, it would stamp each inked letter on the paper. Instantly. There was no backspace or deleting your mistakes. Perfectionism was out the door (or so was a lot of crumpled papers!).
My desire to write a suspenseful, who-killed-who type of book didn’t quite work out. I think I was reading too many RL Stine books at the time. And so I returned to school, grew up, and the desire to write a book dissipated.
But the story isn’t over… it’s just beginning.
Over the past several years, that desire was ignited. Now that desire has grown into a burden. Anytime I’m alone, usually when I’m driving to and from work, I am constantly writing a blog or a story in my head. That is, if I’m not singing at the top of my lungs to Adele… which by the way, I sound just like her when it’s turned up loud enough!
However, the problem with getting older is many of us tend to lose our child-like confidence. I found myself caught in the lies of fear and doubt, which can lead to full-blown paralyzation. It’s a dangerous place to be in, and it’s exactly where Satan wants us to be. The good news is that once we recognize this, we can refute his lies with God’s truth and move forward.
So this is me… moving forward… starting with a blog.
Huge step for me. My purpose for starting a blog is simply to get into the practice of writing… just about random things. I don’t plan to blog about the book writing process or even much about it at all. I just need to start somewhere. Confession – I created my wordpress account a year ago! Yeah, pretty pathetic, I know. God bless my hubby for putting up with my procrastinating ways. Sometimes I wish I were more like him, in the sense that if he decided to write a blog he would just do it – now – not a year later! He’s such an innovative, go getter, makes things happen kind of guy, and I just admire those qualities in him. But that’s not how God wired me.
“And he said unto me, ‘My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.’” -2 Corinthians 12:9a (KJV)
God sure knows my weak spots. I’ve come to realize that much like the inked keys on the typewriter stamping each letter one by one on the paper, so are the graceful nudges God imprints on our hearts. His grace and love just continues to grow and will always remain. Waiting for us to take hold. I am so thankful that he has never given up on me. In all things. Period.
How about you? Is there something God may be nudging you to do? Or perhaps simply a weakness you need to hand over to Him?
Whatever it is, he’s got it covered (if you let him)… he’s kind of a big deal, being God and all!